How can I sum up a life changing experience such as today’s big event? Warren started kindergarten today and neither one of us will ever be the same.
He was both excited beyond belief and holding back sadness as reality settled in for him. A mixture I felt much the same.
Ready to go almost an hour before school started, he walked around the house with his new Lightning McQueen backpack asking when we were going to leave every five minutes or so.
Holding hands with him was about the only thing keeping me going down that long pathway to his classroom. His equal grip told me that maybe he still needed his mama just a little bit, too.
The moment of truth came. Would he willingly go in? He looked at the three of us in hesitation, remembered the box of Hot Wheels cars waiting inside the door, and entered with a smile.
The time came for us to leave our little boy. No tears from any of us, though I admit my eyes did glisten a little bit after seeing that he really was going to be alright there in the corner playing with his new classmates.
After dropping him off, I only cried for a moment when lunchtime came and it was just me and Maddie and no Warren chattering in the background. The combination of genuine pride and overwhelming emptiness is quite remarkable.
Turns out Warren had his moment, too. But he didn’t cry.
“Mom, I felt a little bit sad when I was playing with the cars, but then someone asked if he could play with me and I said yes,” he confided. “Then I felt better.”
It’s an emotional experience realizing you’re getting big. Big enough to be away from home on your own for half the day. And it’s just as poignant for the mom letting that kid go.
We celebrated the achievement with dinner out eating pepperoni pizza and store bought vanilla cake-flavored ice cream (who invents that??), Warren’s choice.
We officially have a school-aged child. One who is going to rock the kindergarten world!