Crazed

That’s how I’ve felt this last month and ever since Warren started school. Honestly, running around here and there, appointments and obligations every day of the week, it all has left me feeling a little crazy.

I could almost handle the events of the summer (though not always gracefully) that mostly came from Colin’s responsibilities as Young Men President: the Roadshow, the Cardboard Boat Regatta, the Boy Scout Super Trip he planned, plus the weekly Mutual activities. Not to mention all his Sunday meetings, sometimes 3 per day. But now that Warren is in Kindergarten, I feel like I’ve kind of lost my mind. Colin’s responsibility load, plus Warren’s schedule, plus my own church obligations, plus my duties as Mom and household manager make life feel completely bonkers. Sometimes it’s almost too much to handle.

Really, we are so completely busy. I have never been busier in my life. None of us have reached this level of insanity before and I’m fearful that it’s only going to get worse.

I blame most of it on school. Wow. I knew that school would make things busier than before, but I don’t think I fully understood until we got here. It’s kind of like adding kid #2 to your family. People tell you it’s going to be nuts, but you don’t really get it until it happens to you.

Just for fun, and maybe so that I can laugh at how ludicrous it is instead of whining/crying, here are some examples of recent household obligations, most still on-going:

  • School
  • Work
  • Volunteer in Warren’s school 2 hours a week
  • Watch a friend’s baby so that she can volunteer at school
  • Early Start therapy
  • Write the Primary Program
  • Cardiology check-ups
  • Playgroup
  • Visiting Teaching
  • Home Teaching
  • Church meetings
  • Visiting family
  • Soccer practices
  • Soccer games
  • School carpooling
  • Make a soccer banner
  • Exercising
  • Hosting out-of-town family
  • Asthma Specialist appointments
  • Parent-Teacher Meeting
  • Family Home Evening
  • A few birthday parties, showers, and other get-togethers
  • Weekday Young Men activities

All this time I’ve been trying to adhere to the counsel given by Elder Ballard. But it starts adding up fast. One kid in one activity (soccer) and in school make it hard enough. Imagine when Maddie starts.

I know that many of you out there have even more on your plates than this. More demanding church callings (though I don’t think it gets much worse than Young Men President, aside from Bishop), greater work responsibilities, more children in school… And some of you are even doing it without the luxury of a spouse being home by 5PM every day.

So what it comes down to is this: I’m a big, old wuss. I just don’t handle busy very well.

I am attempting to reclaim my life. It feels slightly better now that some of the assignments I’ve been given are completed. And that we’re settling into the school routine. But it will never be as relaxed as I once knew life to be.

I just need to breathe and remember this too shall pass. This is my time and season for crazy.

9 thoughts on “Crazed”

  1. I can’t tell you it gets better, but you’ll get stronger and adapt to life. Just do the best you can, stay calm, and enjoy this busy season in your life. It’s worth it.

  2. I used to wish that I could cut out being home/visit taught, but then my vt started taking the girls to play with her same aged twins, so I decided to leave that in and bake cookies with that extra time. It’s better for everyone.

    Wish I could be there to lighten your load! Everyone deserves some load lightening. Don’t you wish that we could live in the compound in Hyde Park? Seems like some work share would make things a little better.

    You’re doing great! Keep it up!

  3. 1. Me too.

    2. I miss the to and from part of visiting teaching with you, when we had those moments to talk about this kind of stuff. And everything you would say, just like everything you’ve written here, would make me think, “Yes. Yes! Me too! I KNOW! Exactly! Totally. I get it. That’s how I feel!” etc. etc. etc. I could really use some of that this month. I wish we had appointments, like, tomorrow.

    3. You have to write the primary program!!??

  4. Oh, dear. I just finished my post and went to check in on my dear friend to find that my post is a rerun. So, three more years hasn’t made it any better. But I understand how you feel! And I know that if anybody can do it, it’s you. And then I’m counting on you to teach me and pull me along to make it, too.

  5. it is an adjustment, for sure. i can’t wait to learn what you learn from it so that i can become better at it, too. love you lots.

  6. Jeannie, if you are feeling crazy, you sure don’t show it. You seem to handle it all with such grace. But Annie is right, you’ll learn to adjust because you have to and you can! :0)

  7. On a positive note, you have way cute halloween decorations. Even in a whirlwind of activity you still manage to make holidays fun for your family. Good job lady!

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